CHEWING THE CUD

So........yet another cycle about to complete, and my 5th semester end sem exams are about to start tomorrow. Feeling a little weird. today wasn't like the day before an "end semester exam"!! at least my nerves would have tightened up making me aware of an exam tomorrow.
even they seem to have got tired of watching me build castles in the air.
But i don't know why I've been chanting that word the whole day as I'm desperately trying to focus myself - "PERSEVERANCE"
I closed my eyes.
Gave a positive nod,
"Perseverance".

DRIFTING
OM beach,Gokarna
28th October 2006

Where are you going
With the long face pulling down
Dont hide away like an ocean
But you can see, but you can smell and the sound
Of your waves coming down
I am no superman not at all
But I have no answers for you
I am no hero, and thats for sure
But I do know one thing
Where you go, is where I want to be
Where are you going?
(Dave Matthew's Band)

I paused the music.
Picked up the receiver
“Hello…..?????????”
“Hello……..??Can you her me…??”
No answer
“Hello…..???”
Again…no answer
I put the receiver back and strolled back to the shore. It was pitch dark. I could only hear the waves approaching and receding as the tide was rising. Sand slipped out of the gaps between my fingers as I tried to collect them. So was time. Every time we travel, we search for answers for the questions we were never able to decipher and questions for the answers we had found but never understood what the question was.
I lied down and closed my eyes..
Lines from the book I so badly wanted to read here seemed to fall in place

“Sooner or later, fate puts us together with all the people, one by one, who show us what we could and shouldn’t, let ourselves become. Sooner or later, we meet the drunkard, the waster, the betrayer, the ruthless mind, and the hate filled heart. But fate loads the dice, of course, because we usually find ourselves loving or pitying for all those people.
For this what we do. Put one foot forward and then the other. Drag our shadowed crosses into the hope of another night. And push our brave hearts into the promise of a new day. For so long as fate keeps waiting, we live on.
We live on.”
I dozed off as the song played on and on.